20/10/06

// feeling :: exhausted
// prayer for :: svc tmr

Okay...Had cgm at Simei. It was great. Had games and all. Heh, I was the only one who needed to forfeit but thank God bro Alvin forgot! Heh heh heh..

Been thinking about myself. You dont need to be a very close friend to me to notice the change in me. Like my dressing.

Everytime I look at myself in the mirror, my sister would come and tell me I look great, but I'll be doubtful and say, "do I", "do I", "do I".

I dont recognize myself at all. People like Gab and Belle keep quiet because they know why I'm doing this. But do I know why I'm doing this?

Doesnt feel like me. I may look better now. But I dont feel right about myself. Wanna look good for God.


I'm getting rather straightfoward now. And its not in a good way.